feeling down and out

i think it all started when i realized i would have to spend all of this beautiful afternoon, indoors, at work, behind a computer.
i miss all the afternoons and evenings i would sit on my rooftop doodling and scribbling into my journal
and now that the weather is cooling down again, i think i have a date with the night time sky

i've been having an inner struggle recently, a struggle for confidence.
everytime i get to place where i am proud of myself, i always convince myself to not be because i'm afraid of seeming concieted.  all it does in the end is make me insecure and wonder what my strengths are.
i think i need to take more time to praise my accomplishments, and less time thinking of all the negatives.

today i feel low, but it's okay because that is how i grow.
it can only go up up up from here
i can still change the world, after i change myself.